I didn't cut for a few months. I thought I was doing really well. But tonight I did it again. And this is the worst it's ever been. When I did it before I usually did 5 to 7 cuts. But tonight I did 34. I'm scared. I want to do it more. I want to feel it again. I want to see the blood. I want to give up and just cut myself up till I have no more room. I don't even remember the reasons why I stopped anymore. It's all left me. My mind is blank. The only thing I want to do right now is feel more and more pain. I don't know what to do anymore. Help.