ive always felt suicidal, its only been the last couple of months i was ready to die. when i joind this site i became suprised with how many people actually care and that the world isnt full of scum bags. the last couple of days now ive become so strong. i almost hit a truck riding my motorcycle not long ago and i remember how hard i tryed to get out of its way even thou i was so depressed, only now i know why i did that, my will to survive kicked in. i dont care if i die anymore, but its me against the world and its gonna have to do better than that to take me out. i owe it to this site and all the people on it, i give my THANKS to all of you for your support, it helped me push that little bit more which gave me enough time to figure it out. i still look back on how i felt, but i feel like a survived it. im still going to use this site and help others the way they helped me, i owe you poeple more but thats all i got. and u might still see me post things on 'let it all out', just to blow of steam so once again thank you everybody i hope you all feel the positive change soon. we can be saved, we can adapt, we can survive.