this is weird

It's weird I've resolved to kill myself and I suddenly feel awesome. I'm on top of the fucking world. I guess suicidal thoughts really are an effective coping mechanism. Does anyone else feel ecstatic when they get closer to death?

(note to those concerned the feeling will probably pass and ill be back to my old living unsure state)

 

I agree. The feeling that I might die any day is a relief.

 

Haven't felt that for a long time but I love the feeling.

 

It is strange but it is a recognised fact that the closer to death we are the more alive we feel. This is confirmed by people who have lived through wars and by people who take up extreme sports.

 

I dont know for the last 3 months I was dealing with suicidal idealation as it was the only way I was able to deal with my life, now I am coming to the conclusion I probably wont kill myself but I still dont know how to deal with my life and all these things have happened


I felt very good when I thought about suicide as it was the only thing to make me feel better but now that I am coming down dont know how I can handle this

 

had one attempt where I felt euphoric. I came real close in succeeding my attempt.