I have said that I was going to the hospital a day after I attempted suicide. I can't say I was happy there because I needed to be kept busy and it was boring. I went to group sessions, and the other patients were nice people, even though I felt lonely. Unfortunately, I was discharged 2 days later, with no medication, and now I'm feeling just as awful as I have been before. I still want to die, I'm just as paranoid, and I have no motivation to look for jobs or do anything anymore (not even take a shower). My favorite band has become a trigger, and I'm dealing with so many triggers. I still feel like I'm a monster. I'm upset and angry at people, and I starting to suffer from mild monophobia. I'm starting to wonder if I was misdiagnosed. I'm just angry at the hospital for failing to treat me. That were my last chance. I don't know what to do anymore. Mom hid the sleeping pills.