This little white dove is going... This little white dove is going to where there is no more pain , no more hurting, no more sorrow , no more tears... This little dove cant take it anymore.. This little dove was dumb... dumb to believe in making peace... this little dove has given up on any peace.. This little dove cant be totally free in her spirit.. it is troubled and cant see the peace that it so needs to rest easily... This little dove has tried , but she knows she cant make anyone love her.. She knows she can never truly be loved.. This little dove , has an emotional pain from a troubled spirit that will never go away.. it cant be fixed and the pain cant ever go away because of the Daltons refusal to help ease her troubled mind and spirit... This little dove has begged and begged them, has written talk show hosts that have never replied , has written letters that have come back returned / refused. This little dove has called only to hear on the phone * caller is not accepting calls at this time * indicating to this little dove that her number has been blocked... This little dove understands the pain and feels it deeply in her heart , yet it cant go away and her spirit cant rest... This little dove has a physical pain of a cancer that is eating away her body and that she has no control over nor can stop... This little dove knows to stay and fight would bring only more pain and she knows what it does to people.. this little dove has seen it with her own two eyes what cancer did to her mom and will soon do to her.. The physical pain is unending and getting stronger by each day and this little dove knows shes not that strong and cant hold on when theres nothing to hold on to... This little dove is alone , she knows she has no one who cares.. she knows no one loves her and she knows she cant hold on and fight without anyone there to help her.. she also knows it is a battle that even she cant win... She knows that she is alone and that she will die alone , in a bed without anyone by her side if she stays to fight.. This little dove knows she has no choice now... she knows shes alone.. she knows shes unloved.. This little dove has a big heart.. She loves with it so strongly and she has tried so long to make peace as it is what is required , yet she knows time has run out and the peace she needs and tries to help get before her time will never be.. This little dove has a heart that bleeds deeply.. this little dove has been called many names online at other boards and each time a name was said or an icon was placed to others as fun was to this little dove a dagger to her big heart that so desperatly needed love.. This little dove was torn apart inside when she heard the news of cancer , she was torn so much that her little heart was bearly beating , the fear , the loneleness , and the anger was directed at God first , then at others , then finally the anger had died down and the fear of death set in... This little dove is young and did not want this cancer yet she knows she has to accept what God has given her... So this little dove goes online to make things right and to make peace with an open and honest heart this little dove pours her heart and soul out online but only she is rejected and called a whore.. a whore of attention... This name calling by the icon was so intense that it got all her fears , anger up and she thought of ending it all. This little dove has not got much more left of her heart.. where it once was big , loving , kind , caring , and strong heart at one time , has now got a tattered and torn heart that bleeds uncontrollably , she is now weak and frail from the cancer.. this little dove is hurting deeply in her soul from an emotional pain that she has tried to ease but can not because of others who are wiilling to keep her in this bondage.. to keep her in the emotional pain... This little dove is weak from the cancer that is raveging her body and though she tries with all her might to stay strong and to go on she knows deep down in her heart she cant... This little dove is going away.. Away to peace , that she needs , away to a place of love where she knows she will be held in the one and only one who is strong enough to carry her.. the only one who has never left her..