I knew it would all fall apart. Theres no way in hell it'll get better. I gave everybody advice telling them it would turn around, yet i've been a big fat hipocrite to myself. It won't get better for me. All of my friends are applying to colleges. I can't even go to the ones I want because I can't find a reasonably cheap place to live. Why can they not get dorms there? Why can they not understand how hard this is for me? All my highschool life I worked my ass off, trying to impress my parents. Now I can't impress them. I can't go to college, I can't even graduate from a normal highschool. What did I do to deserve this? I was perfectly fine when I lived in NY. Why do I have to be the depressed paranoid schizophrenic? Why not some greedy selfish asswipe?