When you really can think clearly about the choices you want to make, no worry, no fear, even a little happiness is thrown in the mix. The thought that you WILL die one day and that none of us are imortal. Whatever you chose to do with your life is just a waste. None of it matters when death comes to collect our debts. It would be so easy for me right now, it really would. I've been waiting for a space like the way I feel atm.