I'm on antidepressants. I've had minor suicidal thoughts in the back of my mind for as long as I can remember. I regret basically everything I can remember from my childhood. I’m probably going to fail my university course because some of the lecturers know less about the subjects they’re teaching than I did when I was 12. I can’t find any news that isn’t either terrorism, counter-terrorism, or celebrity bullshit. Almost everyone who I consider(ed) friends or looked up to in any way are all either seriously stressed and depressed or turning out to be horrible people. At least one has fallen in with GamerGate, which is one of the aforementioned terrorist groups (no I'm serious). Even a couple of my best friends irl have recently talked about suicide. I feel like if one of us goes, we'll take each other down too. I spend pretty much all of my time now trying to do uni work and failing, or reading a friend's website, playing some old puzzle games on my laptop, listening to crappy music, or drinking. I am worthless, there is barely any good in the world, and humanity has no hope of ever being anything but stupid and hateful.