I know there are those who.wojld ask "why is he complaining?". I think the same thing about successful people in media who have self harmed or taken their own life. I have a good job. It pays really well. I'm very good at it. I have a second shadow career that adds to the good job and is based on things that I once developed and is now a company. That shadow career won't go away. The company keeps bugging me and begging for extra time and more help and pleasing and expecting me to help them. They throw money at me and beg and plead me to help fix things and I have a career. I don't want to be part of this. I try to say no politely. I try to stop the expectations.
This all sounds so stupid: "just tell them no" and "why are you complaining" but this is just another example of things that won't stop.
I have a job and I am constantly surrounded by people not related to that work or job who need help for things. I try to give them a bit of direction and it always results in meetings scheduled and calls and hours of my time.
Last week a developer came to me needing help with a math coding problem and I gave her some suggestions figuring she would take that suggestion and go off and explore and work. Four half hour calls later over three days I've had to walk her through every step of somethibg I didn't want to have to solve for someone. I'm tired. I don't like to have to do this kind of thing for everyone else all the time.
I know I should be grateful I have work and purpose but it's just neverending and most is things that I tryi to say no to and it comes back.
This all adds so much to my depression.
This all sounds so stupid: "just tell them no" and "why are you complaining" but this is just another example of things that won't stop.
I have a job and I am constantly surrounded by people not related to that work or job who need help for things. I try to give them a bit of direction and it always results in meetings scheduled and calls and hours of my time.
Last week a developer came to me needing help with a math coding problem and I gave her some suggestions figuring she would take that suggestion and go off and explore and work. Four half hour calls later over three days I've had to walk her through every step of somethibg I didn't want to have to solve for someone. I'm tired. I don't like to have to do this kind of thing for everyone else all the time.
I know I should be grateful I have work and purpose but it's just neverending and most is things that I tryi to say no to and it comes back.
This all adds so much to my depression.