I feel like a terrible student. Here I am the night before the big paper is due...writing it! I swore I would never be one of those kids who waits until the last minute, but I've been too depressed to even begin! This and my 4 other papers, along with the fact that I am straight up out of money to pay bills and repair the car...why the f*** do I even try????!!! I am not deserving of a university education...my professors would be so disappointed with me if they knew I skipped class today to write this and didn't even start! All those scholarships...I should just kill myself so that the money goes to a more deserving student. On the "bright" side, I've got an appointment with a new psychologist on Monday. I want to die now, but some pathetic part of me wants to put it off until at least that day. Anyone an expert on apoB48 and postprandial preheparin lpl activity? At least my subject is something I like. Now there's a ray of hope.