This Sunday

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by White Dove, Aug 9, 2007.

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  1. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    This Sunday,

    I am going to go be with my Uncle Austin who just passed away..

    Everything i love gets taken from me..

    Everything i care about i lose..

    I have lost everything...

    I cant fix anything..

    My prayers are useless. i prayed for my uncle Austin all day yestereday and all night last night yet he is gone... He was taken from me

    Everything i love gets taken from me , everything...

    I also want to say that whoever is praying to God for me not to kill myself to please stop??? Please stop the prayers to God to keep me alive???

    I am in enough pain as it is and losing my uncle this morning has topped the most pain i have ever felt because i have lost everything..

    i have lost those two that i thought really loved me and cared, that i thought of and had admired as parents ( the daltons )

    i have lost all my friends and now my loved ones..

    there is nothing left for me anymore..

    i have lost all hope ..

    Well at least i get to see the derbies and camp and go while i am camping in peace...

    i am coming to join you my dear Austin, this sunday we will meet again...

    love you, i love you so much..:hug:
  2. HomerSimpson

    HomerSimpson Well-Known Member

    I guess I am the wrong one to give any advice, because every second of my life is a struggle to hold on. Maybe the next day will be better, and bring us whatever it may be that will make us happy. I just dont know, but I guess we have to try as hard as it is to keep that small amount of hope for some reason, but trust me when I say I know how you feel.
  3. ShalenaM

    ShalenaM Well-Known Member

    HHmff.I"m going to commit suicide this Sunday too..I swear we're Soulmates!
  4. White Dove

    White Dove Well-Known Member

    please dont??

    you have so much to live for..

    i dont have anything to live for... im dying anyways.. and i cant fight both pains..

    if it was just a physical pain of this cancer then i could fight it , but i cant fight both a physical and an emotional pain..

    part of the reason i have come on here was to try and make peace with a few before i die by the cancer but i have found out i cant do that..

    and peanut you are so right hun :hug: when you say i cant make anyone love me, i cant make anyone love or care for me..

    it doesnt matter how i feel about them, cause my feelings mean nothing to them.. it never did , if it had then they would have sent a letter , a card , or even just a call , but i know now the true nature of them , and that they just dont give a damn about me and never gave a damn about my feelings either , if they had then they would not have added more emotional pain upon me, they just would not havee added any more pain if they had truly loved me...

    i have given up on them just like i have given up on life...

    im going to finally be free this sunday , free from all pain,

    but please Shalenam , dont do it hun..

    you might make it and live and then end up like me , with a physical cancer that will take you away anyway... please reconsider??

    i tried to take my life by OD a few years ago , most of the OD stayed in my system and had aleady went to my liver , this i fully believe has caused me to have liver cancer now... please dont do it hun? please??? to go through this physical pain of cancer is not worth ..
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