Trying to talk myself out of doing it tonight and forgetting everything I "need" to do. Thinking that it doesn't matter if I'm just going to be dead anyway.
I'm sorry to hear that you are suicidal but I'm glad you haven't done anything yet. I hope that you will be able to find something to distract you and keep you going. Even if it's just to post here and talk to us. :hugtackles:
I told my best friend I'd visit her on Thursday and stay until Sunday.
I'm torn. Do I visit her? Or do I kill myself?
If I visit her, I know I'll have a good time, but it won't change anything.
If I kill myself, it won't matter that I didn't get to see her one last time.
I keep trying to tell myself there's no hurry to kill myself. Nothing is stopping me doing it next week rather than this week. So why do I feel such a sense of urgency about it?
I have decided that tomorrow is the day I finally go through with this. I reached out to my friend, told her almost everything. She had nothing to say, changed the subject. I don't know what I expected anyway.
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