well as some of you may have read i attempted last week but was "saved" by some asshole thinking he was doing me a favor. well im going to try again tommorow and this time i will be succesful. at first i didnt want to use a gun because i didnt want the people who have to discover me or clean up the gore to be traumuatized or anything. but desperate times call for desperate measures so im going to <Mod edit: Abacus21 - methods> and do the deed. anyway, like i said before dont follow my example. Im sure you can work out whats going on in your life and enjoy the rest of it to some extent or another. My life is just too fucked up to fix and i know ill die alone and penniless anyway so i figure ill just speed up the process. So goodbye everyone, try to enjoy life, and when you do pass on i'll see you there.