This time tommorow

[Hache]

Killing myself tommorow night.

No point anymore.

• Career pressure. Failing, hard to get out, hard to change, failing again, cant do it
• I am lonely, i lost my last friend at Christmas, i have only have 1 or 2 people online who will talk to me
• I am ugly and weedy
• I'm a fussy eater, too fussy, fucked up fussy, but i dont want to change it, why cant the world change for me, i am sick of being laughed at and mocked even by my own family members
• i have no independence and cant get it
• media pressure driving me over the edge, must have friends, must go out, must have sex
• sat in a room for 2 years on the pc
• Have dreams, not sure if you can call them nightmares, but visions, i see people from the past or the present and in what i see they always have the things i above stated. Some dreams are triggered by what i see during the day. But its like when these things happen i am half awake.

 

[carol2237]

Hache,

I am sorry you feel like this. I hope that things will improve for you and you will start to find things bearable again before tomorrow. gles* my PM box is always open hunny

Caroline

 

[ScouseJM]

Mike, please dont leave. I care about you and I believe in you :hug:

 

[touglytobeloved]

I think there are a lot of people here on SF who will talk to you.

 

[Hache]

talking on forums is too slow a process. It doesnt matter, i have to die.

 

[touglytobeloved]

Im not saying that talking on forums will help you, because im talking here, to, and it is not really helping me. At least, its easier when you share your pain.

 

[Hache]

i dont think anyone believes i will do it anyway

 

[thegrey]

You can add people on SF online.
Don't die yet. Not yet. Not yet, okay.

 

[Bob26003]

Please don't . You are such a good person. That is what the World needs.

 

[Hache]

i am not a good person, good people dont get banned from chat, lol.

i cant live anymore, there is no hope for me

 

[forlorn]

mike my friend im also a good person who gets banned from chat lol Dont leave mate, i cant talk to myself lol I dont know what to say im useless but i am your friend if you need me.:smile:

 

[famous.last.words]

Hache, you have always seemed really cool when i have seen you on chat. It seems to me like alot of great people get banned from there, so dont be so hard on yourself.

I really beleive you can get through tommorow, and the next day. But one day at a time. Talk, open up, give yourself another chance.

It would be really cool to get to know you xxx

 

[Hache]

not long now, just waiting for parents to go to bed, already got alcohol in my system so pills should do the trick

 

[falling_away]

I know what you mean about nightmares. I have recurring nightmares about my ex-girlfriend. I can also relate to wanting to die. I'm not going to sit here and preach to you. I know you will make the right decision.

Good luck

 

[Hache]

still alive, just made a mess of my arm thats all