So after a 2 1/2 year relationship with a girl who i was going to marry, things came to and end. She doesn't see a future together anymore. This is the last string i can deal with, i have nothing else left that makes me happy during the day. My furture goals are no where in sight, i hate the place ive been stuck in for the past 4-5 years, which is why i lost her. And i have thought about just ending it now. I am a firearms owner so the way is very easy. Whats sacres me is i wont give my firearms up to family to keep them away from me. So i know im not just feeling sorry for myself, and its a thought that might happen. My family doesnt know what im feeling and i wont tell them, i dont want the spot light on me. I'm so torn between this choice. I try to stay strong during my days but it hurts to much and for to long. I'm tired of the little up's and the major down's, im tired of hearing whats meant to be is meant to be, and things will change. It just seems like everyone is talking about the future and that the present just sucks. I just want to relax.