This world is not for me

Life is too hard. I can't deal with people. I can't deal with my thoughts. I can't take care of myself and I have no one now. I've been fighting this shit for like 5 years now and I'm just getting worse. I just want somebody to tell me it's ok to let go. My pain is real is it's not going away. I need to kill it.

 

Yes the pain needs to be killed so tell your doctor your meds arenot working
meds need to be changed or upped do something okay make things better

 

I haven't been to a doctor or taken meds in a year. I don't have the means to pay for it now. Not that doctors or meds helped before. I'm left to battle my demons on my own, and I'm losing.

 

where are you?

if you are in the states, you may be eligible for medicaid.

you can also go to a hospital emergency room if you are in crisis.

I think if you go to a hospital financial office, they can help you apply for medicaid.

 

if the meds didn't work before, maybe you can get some adjustments made. I think it usually takes a while to get the right treatment.

you might be able to get some kind of therapy too.

 

Hi. The key is to kill your pain, without killing yourself. You want the pain to go away but suicide isn't the solution.