I was at a party with my girlfriend tonight, everybody was dancing as you may suppose. She tried to teach me how to as I don't really know how to dance. I know dancing at that type of events, specially those with friends and family is very important to her (by the way, I'll try to keep this short or I'll end up narrating my entire, crappy life). Her ex boyfriend -who is very important to her, although she denies it- always danced with her and a dog would be a better companion than me. Anyway, I told her she could dance with anyone, not just with me. It really hurt to say it to her, but I felt so bad that I needed to say it. You probably know I'd die if she danced with another guy, I'm a DEADLY jealous guy... Her words were like a taste of heaven to me "Don't worry, I only want to dance with you. Not anyone else", and as always, I just believed her... So, I was already depressed because of knowing she was know for dancing with her ex boyfriend and then... BAM! Some guy asked her out. She turned to me and the only thing that I could say was "Of course!". She went out with him and, god, they danced so nicely... She was laughing and smiling... I was shattered from the inside, I felt like if a bomb inside a crystal cube exploded launching a billion needles into my chest. I really feel she doesn't deserve my trust anymore, she always betrays me and there are always a lot of reasons to start crying. To remember something she did, to see her doing something I didn't want her to do, etc... ANYWAY, the reason I wrote all that is to say that sometimes those little, meaningless things (I mean, c'mon it was just a 60 second dance with another guy) can bring you down for weeks, and just remembering them is like going to hell and staying there an eternity. >tl;dr Crappy guy dies from the inside about meaningless crap. Write about meaningless meaningful things that make you wander into the suicide vast land.