I recently started working with my father doing construction work. My father has been working for this company for 30 years and my grandfather started the company with the owner. My father is site foreman and basically in charge on the site. So i get a certain amount of "respect" from everyone else just because of that. I try my hardest to pull my own wait and do more then what is expected of me. I like my job and from what im told i do it well. Well enough they let me go off on my own and have at it. Which is perfect since my social anxiety is so bad i cant stand working with other people anyways. Spring is here and summer is coming, I HATE SUMMER btw, and i wont be able to always wear long sleeve shirts, especially with such a labor intensive job. I get massive migraines and heat stroke very easily, so long sleeves in the summer wont help that. I have scars that are many years old to ones that are just months or weeks old. Some so large they needed stiches and some that should of had stitches but i didnt want to tell anyone so they healed as these huge leaf like scars. There are thousands of them and not a single bare spot on my left arm. My left thigh and left chest are covered also but at least those are easy to hide. Ive already had to wear t shirts a few times and every time its such a nerve wrecking experiance i drive myself crazy. Nobody will say anything outright, probably because my dad is their boss, but i catch them looking at them when they think im not looking. I am extremely shy and nervous with my social anxiety so i barely talk to any of them. But i almost wish they would just come out and say something or insult me or anything so i can flip out on them. Well i feel like i want to flip out at them and get in a fight or something but i doubt i ever actually would. I just feel like those looks are worse then anything they could say because my mind is coming up with what i think they are thinking about. And my mind tends to make things ALOT worse. Anyone else have similar experiances ? Or could someone just tell me im being paranoid. I know i shouldnt care what people think but that is literally as close to impossible as it gets for me.