I am just wondering because up until recently it was fairly often (maybe once a week), but on Thursday I went out and it was the worst experience of my life. I know I am overweight but I have never had a night out like this, I could see guys wanting to talk to my friend but they were in a pair so they would look at me and decide against it. because obviously it meant one of them would have to take one for the team and speak to me. My friend said it was all in my head but I'm not stupid and I know it wasn't. When it's happening to you it's easier to see. I suppose it's different for those who aren't single and whose friends aren't trying to pick up guys/girls, but mine generally all go out to get attention, and I only really currently have two (two friends that I see regularly) and both are like this. I won't be going out again for quite a while, unless it's a special occasion. That night has really sent me further downhill that I could've thought and I'm hanging on by a thread right now. But of course... I can't tell them because they won't understand. I don't know how it is to be slim and beautiful, have guys fawning all over you when you go out, but what I do know is I am sick of people telling me it's all in my head, because it isn't. I almost wish I didn't have friends because then I wouldn't have to deal with this or be expected to even go to fucking bars and clubs and stuff.