***TRIGGERS, BEWARE*** okay guys this isnt having a go at anyone so please dont take it that way. and i dont want people causing a fight either or i'll delete it, i simply need to get my feelings out. what is it with all these threads about being wanting to get cancer? people saying they hope they get cancer from smoking and die? people saying they dont care if they get cancer? right i understand they are suicidal. i get there. i've been there. it's the worst thing ever. i understand they dont care if they die. i understand that they find smoking helps. i understand that they know the risks. **TRIGGERING** but i just dont get how people can wish this horrible disease on themselves. and their family. and their friends. i mean do they not know what it does to you? do they not know that you don't just go to bed one night and dont wake up the next morning...but that it's months...YEARS OF TORTURE. of not being able to breathe. of not being able to walk. of having to have someone help you to piss. of throwing up. of watching your loved ones sat around you with their hearts breaking, watching you slowly fade away. meh, i dont know where i am going with this post anymore..except into tears. sorry.