I have two kids and they are the only reason I am still alive (that and maybe some naive hope that things will change - ha). I feel like I'm a poison to them dead or alive. I feel guilty for having ever had them. I feel like I've just replicated my misery in two innocent parties. I don't know what to do. Does anyone else have children? Mine aren't old enough to know what's going on yet, but that won't last long.