Hey, My name is Brycen I'm only 15 1/2 and I've thought about suicide many times.. Im sorry if this is stupid and all but it really hurts.. For over 10 years my mom had abused me and I really felt like I was some kid who was a mistake and shouldnt have even exsisted in this world.. I use to get hit everyday and the scars still remain.. Elementry was ok I guess.. I'm really sorry if this is a waste of your guys time.. But It's how I really feel.. I really didnt have any friends.. I was used alot you could say.. When 7th grade came that's when more problems had started.. I had my 1st gf and we had gone out for 11 months until she left me for someone else.. That happens right? I mean stuff like this just happens.. Then 8th grade.. There was this really special girl.. We had gone out for 11 months also until she had dumped me for another guy also.. I had just came back from the trip to the Rose Bowl and I guess even before that.. She had liked this one guy.. I had waited 7 months for her.. But now that we're together.. She got mad at me.. and seem to get jealous of this girl which i didnt like.. she left me once again and it kills me.. Life is unfair I know that.. But even if yeah.. Idk.. it really hurts.. I suck in so much anger and tears.. I take it out on myself so no one else has to get hurt.. I had cut myself on my chest many times.. The wounds seem to heal.. We're together once again.. But yet she gets mad about the same issue.. I mean like.. She hangs with her guy friends and all but yeah.. It feels like she's going to leave me .. All th problems I deal with makes me want to kill myself.. Please help..