Thought I could pretend everything was going to be ok.

I can't think straight, have so many random things going on in my head. Feeling really bad, like i'm a bad person, like i'm so annoying, like I should be on this site. I'm trying really hard today, not to suicide or doing any other stupid thing. Thought I was going to be able to ignore it, now not so sure. Don't get how that can change in an instant. Can't stop any of this.

 

Fleur :hug:

Can you call your therapist? I suppose it might be too late for that, almost 7.. But there is a crisis line. I recall you had bad experiences with it but try to remember that it will be a different person this time and while some are sour old hags others do actually do the job because they care.

Anyway, you need to talk to someone and having a real voice on the other end to remind you that you aren't alone can be a good thing.

Always here if you need me.