I was really upset. Stupid stuff. There was a safety pin on my desk and for the first time in a couple years, I just started hurting myself. I'm pretty surprised I broke the skin with this little thing. It was just there. But I feel so much better.. like everything suddenly focused on that pain and I felt so relieved and mellow. I don't get why this is so frowned on. I'm not trying to slit my wrists, I just redirect my pain and this is instant. I miss it. I did this for years and I stopped.. I don't even know, 5 years ago maybe? It's taking a lot to stop myself from continuing at the moment.