Thought I was better

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by PyRoK, Jan 29, 2007.

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  1. PyRoK

    PyRoK Member

    This weekend was one of the worse ever. I lost a fight against this kid and now my friends have started giving me the cold shoulder. I have to fight this kid again because if I don't people will think I'm a bitch. I guess I have a blocked view of what friends really are. I have never really had "friends" its always been like 1 or maybe none. I'm not sure if I can go on like this, my dad calls me a failure and I never talk to my mom. My sister is off in drug land and if I dont get things figured out, I dont see a point.
     
  2. Jodi

    Jodi Staff Alumni

    PyRoK,

    Im sorry your friends have started to to give you the cold shoulder. Do you really believe fighting this person again is going to change things? Why do you think people would think that you are a bitch, I cant understand that, that is so wrong of them to think that of you. You shouldnt have to prove yourself to your friends, they should stand by you no matter what. Friends dont judge friends and they support eachother. Im so sorry your dad is calling you a failure, parents are suppose to be the people in our lives that support us the most and give us guidance and unfortunately that doesnt always happen. PLease know that your not a failure, just for the fact that your reaching out shows your strength, it takes alot of strength to go online and ask for help from peers that you dont even know. We are glad that you are here and will support you in any way that we can. Give yourself a break and dont try to figure everything out all at once. Keep us up to date on how things are going and if thiers anything we can do to help, dont hesitate to ask.....take good care of yourself and feel free to PM me anytime if you ever want to talk...
     
  3. Zaitsev

    Zaitsev Member

    As Jodi said real friends dont judge you on your ability to beat the hell out of someone and it may be a cliche but its true, takes a stronger person to walk away from a fight. Not haing your parents around to guide and support is tough but no matter how it looks you are never quite alone. There are people here , that are willing to give you the time to express these feelings, use them.
     
  4. bombeni

    bombeni Guest

    I'd say the people at this forum are better friends than the ones you have around you at home right now. And that's ok. The people here really truly care. Listen to them before falling victim to some jerks who just want to use you to liven up their boring lives. You'll find some real friends in your area in time. Try to think about getting involved in some activity you are interested in, like volunteering at your local zoo one saturday a month, or find the volunteer group of people in your area who help the elderly with small repair/clean-up projects at their homes. Or volunteer to work one day a month/week at an Animal Aid thrift shop, or a homeless shelter. It not only makes you feel good about yourself it also brings you into contact with really decent people who will treat you with respect. Good luck!
     
  5. Vega

    Vega Well-Known Member

    As bombeni here said, yeah get a into a volunteer program, or hop on the job train. Some people are pretty decent. As for your "friends" giving you the cold shoulder, look at it this way man. As long as you have that one best friend, then the others mean nothing. Something people all ways told me was "It's not the quantity, it's the quality." So in all truth and aspects you could have one friend, and be set. Again from what bombeni said I've read over some of the posts the people here have made, and made one or two myself. There's caring people here, I suggest you chat regularly with a few of them. ^_^
     
  6. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    If you lost and your friends do now want to be around you just because you lost they are not friends. Or at least that is what I believe.

    I can relate to you though, the only difference is that my family lies to me. I know that both my mom and dad feel I am a failure, but tell me that I am not. My sisters well they are off in drug and sex land too. The only reason they keep in touch with me is so that I will lend them my GCN and my N64.

    I do not know your age but it sounds to me like you need to just wait until you can leave. And then start over, build a new family of people you can relate to and trust.
     
  7. PyRoK

    PyRoK Member

    It took today to realize that my friends are really shitty. After school they decided it would be fun to throw snowballs at me all the way back to house. My house is about 4 blocks from the school. It's hard not to freak out and start throwing punches. I'm so angery right now. I need to go release some anger I'll be back later. Good-bye.
     
  8. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    Oh that is annoying, but are you sure they were not just trying to have innocent fun? Or were you screaming at them to stop and they were refusing? Cause if that was the case then yeah they are shit friends. I know that when I was on the ski patrol, the Jr ski patrol. Those guys would always cut holes in my ski gear bag, a trash bag, and even when I yelled at them to stop they refused. That was the last time I considered them friends, we became co-workers that day.
     
  9. Jodi

    Jodi Staff Alumni

    PyRoK,

    Hey thier PyRok, I sure do hope you found a healthy outlet to release some of that anger. Im so sorry your 'friends' treated you the way they did. I do hope your ok and Im thinking of you and praying your in a good place mentally.....keep us up to date...were here for you...
     
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