This weekend was one of the worse ever. I lost a fight against this kid and now my friends have started giving me the cold shoulder. I have to fight this kid again because if I don't people will think I'm a bitch. I guess I have a blocked view of what friends really are. I have never really had "friends" its always been like 1 or maybe none. I'm not sure if I can go on like this, my dad calls me a failure and I never talk to my mom. My sister is off in drug land and if I dont get things figured out, I dont see a point.