I am a very private personwith a private job. A lot of people loking toward me and I have been tired with life for way too long. Used to be into alcohol an drugs since before ny teens when I overdose. This kept on througn my 20, Self harming in severe forms sill to present,along with past stuff that manifests it self through PTSD. Have maintained sobriety over a decade with almost years clea/sober.The chemicals were my medication!!!! having eatingdisorder and PTSD issues every second of the day, Have really focused on the end. I see a therapist twice a week and am on some meds. I see Psych doc once a month. Prayer and meditaion dailiy-help others-show forgiveness-make ammends when needed -even recovery meeting!!! Eaveryone,...........I have tried--When not at work wondering is this it I go home and remain in bed. Iz I can do this!!!!