I got drunk the other day, and I found myself feeling VERY sick. I thought if only I drank a little more vodka I could just die from alcohol poisoning. Unfortunatley (or fortunately) my friends thought the same thing and wouldn't let me near the bottle. It was good anyway, just to forgot eveyrthing for a while. To be able to just get trashed. I do hate though that I am turning to the bottle just to get me through the day. If I had dies that way it wouldn't have brought as much shame and embarassment to the family. I keep thinking about it. I would never do it though, quiters never win, and its ALL about winning.