These past few nights have been the worst of my life. Having social anxiety has turned me into the biggest mess ever. I am scared of getting up, walking out the door and seeing people. Even the ones I can call "friend". I'm scared I'll break down in front of them. After these past few nights filled with tears, pain, regrets, horrible thoughts and anxiety attacks I dont feel strong enough to carry on. Meanwhile I have 4 huge pieces of revision everyday (besides Fridays) for the next month and then a week of tests. I don't think I can make it. I am rapidly losing myself, no matter how many times my friend says "i am here for you" and "i care" i just feel worthless and so isolated. After all the horrible things that have gone on I just want to go silence myself.