I thought I was feeling a bit better, but like an old friend, my depression is back and it's feeling so intense lately.
There's been too much change in my life and I'm extremely overwhelmed with work. That won't let up until the summer. I thought it would make a nice distraction, but I'm falling so far behind on everything. It doesn't help that one of my bosses changed the script on me for one of my projects. Something I'd worked on for weeks on was nearly completely scrapped and so I'm having to start from scratch on many portions of it.
Some of my work is public and I just a comment that criticized what I do, saying I put in hardly an effort. But I worked so hard on that project. I dunno. Everything makes me feel so fragile and I'm afraid I'm just about to break.
I'm tired and so sad, and feeling really low. I am starting to fantasize about dying again. It gives me some comfort.
And btw, people are cruel.
There's been too much change in my life and I'm extremely overwhelmed with work. That won't let up until the summer. I thought it would make a nice distraction, but I'm falling so far behind on everything. It doesn't help that one of my bosses changed the script on me for one of my projects. Something I'd worked on for weeks on was nearly completely scrapped and so I'm having to start from scratch on many portions of it.
Some of my work is public and I just a comment that criticized what I do, saying I put in hardly an effort. But I worked so hard on that project. I dunno. Everything makes me feel so fragile and I'm afraid I'm just about to break.
I'm tired and so sad, and feeling really low. I am starting to fantasize about dying again. It gives me some comfort.
And btw, people are cruel.