If you read this, kudos to you, you're probably above most people mentally or just bored. I'm 16 years old sitting on my computer right now typing this up in the middle of the night, I have nothing to do today and I'll have nothing to do tomorrow, not like it matters anyways. My family is pretty well off, but its all pointless to me, they always try to force me to socialize with people and do stuff I don't want to do, it makes me disappointed more then anything what I want to do yet they force me to do other things. I prefer to be alone, they force people on me, I don't want a girlfriend, they say why don't you have one, I like to play video games they say it wastes your life(what dosen't we all die eventually anyways?) It's funny how little they do too, many people have asked me if I was suicidal, including people close to me, yet I still have a semi-automatic rifle in my room with ammo, isn't that a big no no? It's possible for me to just end it all right now because theres really nothing to stay for, I guess you could say how can you feel the relief if you die, but what does it matter? I play a mmo called Final Fantasy XI... theres a lot of close friends I have on there but you can tell they honestly don't care....I just don't know what to do anymore... another thought: if our primary instinct as humans is surivial, why do people want to die? Because the genes say they were not to live?