I just turned 19. I go to a university but I've been battling social anxiety for years. I feel like I have no future because my social anxiety has made me a nervous wreck who is unable to look for a job, get a job, make money, make friends, keep friends, etc. I just feel like some time down the road I might commit suicide. Not soon though, I just don't see myself living past 25 or 30. The only thing that has stopped me from committing suicide the past couple years was because I do love my family, and I know they would be sad if I left them .... but they just don't give me respect for my "situation", as my dad likes to put it. Anyone else ever feel like this? Where you don't plan on committing suicide now, but you don't see yourself living past a certain age?