Here I am again. A complete mess. These thoughts are going over and over and I want them to go away. Will I ever act on them? Perhaps, who knows. Impulsiveness can be my friend And my enemy. I don't know what way to turn or what to do or anything. I've been stuck in this one position most of the morning. Staring out a window, mind on overload and just stuck. Dot know what to do, how to get moving. I don't know. It's so rediculous. Only thing I know to do is take meds and go to bed. I can't go on like this all the time.