Today is my friends birthday. She isn't here any more, she took her life. I still feel immense guilt and sadness. I heard from her a couple of days before she left. Things seemed a bit better for her. But we all know how that roller-coaster goes. I should have been there for her, but I wasn't. There is much I should have done but I didn't. I definitely failed her as a friend, particularly because she was my only childhood friend I had always remained in touch with. I'm angry I didn't see, I was blind, i did not help. Happy birthday Raisin....I miss you and all we shared very much.