Thoughts

[Pad]

I was just wondering what it would be like if the only thing that keeps me from going, was gone. it doesn't scare me, it intrigues me. i would feel free and i would feel no guilt. It scares me now, losing her, but if she was gone i wouldn't feel a thing. i never stop thinking about this. sometimes it's the only thing in my head that makes sense

 

[Stranger1]

Hey Pad,
Welcome to the forum!! It sounds to me that you are still grieving over your loss. Give it time. Like the saying goes time heals all wounds. I don't know much about your situation so that is all I can say for now. Maybe you can elaborate a little more about what happened. Take care!!~Joseph~

 

[Pad]

my girlfriend hasn't left me, i just get the feeling she will. i have kind of tried to prepare for it but i just feel so bad. my boss sent me home from work, i cant concentrate on anything and have no energy, it takes all my effort just to get out of bed. ive stopped taking my meds and have missed a couple of visits to my therapist. i dont want to go back to her and explain how i feel, she will just say im being silly as usual but she doesnt know how things are, or exactly what happens in my life. i dont even think i tell enough of how i really feel anyway so she cant help

 

[Rosenrot]

Dude, that's all I think about. If I lose what keeps me stable, I'm absolutely fucked. For me, it isn't really a girlfriend, though, it's more, a job, my ability to afford my anti-depressants, etc..