I'm glad you're still alive, and that you came on here. :arms: You don't have to go through this alone, even though I know you must feel so lonely right now. People do care though. You're worth caring about. I know the things in your past are torturing you, and I know there may not be words that can take that away. But you're not a bad person. You don't deserve any of the hurt, or pain, or loneliness you're dealing with right now. I've always liked and respected you, and there's nothing that would change that. Not everyone will judge you for what you've had to do in the past.