I've had a life full of emotional pain for years now. I'm never happy anymore and it feels like everything is stacked against me all the damn time. Every time I try to turn things around and make a better life for myself, it ends up failing because of some bullshit. I often ask myself "How does one have an enjoyable life if you're constantly fighting an uphill battle?". So I've decided that I can't take this shit anymore. <mod edit- guidelines> I guess I'm telling you all this because I at least want some people to know what happened to me, as I have no friends myself.