I feel like I'm a ticking time bomb waiting to go off. I have far too much energy for my body to contain. I'm finding it hard to sleep for long amounts of time. I'm due for my second assessment for this month because I broke down at my doctors and I told him I can't do this anymore. He huffed and he sighed, but he dealt with it which I guess is good. But waiting around for this appointment is driving me crazy. I hear my name. I hear music playing. Shadows follow me around like bodyguards. Life is like 30 odd TV channels on at the same time. I can't concentrate on one thing. What's that over there? Who is that person? Why did they look at me? Is something wrong? What's going on? Are they reading my mind? They're going to hurt you. Don't get close. Because people hurt you. It's in human nature. But then again, Maybe everyone isn't human. Who knows? A few of us do. I want to tear at myself. I want my skin off. I don't like it there.