So today I was diagnosed with POCS and given a drug that is used for diabetics. My first thought....that will be a good one for suicide. Making sure I have a hypo and die. A nice quiet, painless death. It's weird. I have been thinking about it for so long and that was one of my methods but getting the drugs was going to be a problem. Now, I have been handed them on a plate! It's like a ticking bomb is in my bedside table.