Hi. I have made my decision. I don't want to live in this place. There is nothing more to live for. Sorry mum and dad, although you two don't read this. You had done your best and I appreciate that. I know I'm a hopeless case. Sorry for being a hopeless case. I'm sorry for being born with such a poor brain. There's just no way back. I won't be happy ever again. Why live a sad life, with insulting people looking down on you? You say: "Life will become better." But when? You never tell me when. I've been waiting for that perfect day to come. I don't want to wait any longer. I'm a silly. Why was I born? God doesn't want me.