Drinking far too much now. I have drunk since I was about 14, it started properly when I was about 15 due to stress etc. I have drank too much since then, always been known as the drinker to my friends (in a fun way, they never really saw the bad sides). But this morning I got up at ten am and poured a drink. Been doing that for a while, and then I went on facebook and saw that someone had posted something from the day before (about 4pm) saying 'Having a drink,it's always 7pm somewhere!' and I sorta realised that my drinking is not normal. It has always been odd, but I have been waking up and drinking in the morning and throughout the day and then before bed every day for months and that isn't normal. I am not sleeping, my muscles ache, I always feel ill and tired and I can't stomach food/retch all the time, even when sober. I hide drink when i am home and if I don't drink for a day I feel crap and crave it. I am on the bipolar spectrum too. This drinking has to stop and I ought to go to an AA meeting but I'm scared.How do I tell a friend? I'm always the life of the party due to drinking.