They say time heals the pain of losing someone special in your life. Why do I still have the feeling that I don't want to go on without you. I feel I'm only going through the motion on life right now. The only thing so far that has kept me from ending it, is knowing how this will affect my family. But I can feel that I'm slowly even forgetting that. Even though I had a great time with family today, I still had thoughts without you it doesn't matter anymore. Sitting here now comteplating the meaning of life and how am I ever going to manage knowing that you will never love me again. WHY oh Why did you have to just give up on me.