Went abroad, was meant to be for a while, messed up employment opportunity, travelled a bit instead, money ran out before I could find a job, had to come home, moved back in with parents, almost 25, penniless, no friends, no independence, no job, on the dole for nearly 2 months, nothing happening. Failed at this adulthood thing, no relationships, worthless to society, no belonging, no career, no future. Expected to apply for this job that has come up. In a place I know is an utter utter dump, to think I have lost these opportunities in beautiful foreign destinations to end up in one of the worst places in England. I am getting nearer the edge. It's coming.