lets face it... time puts pressure on us. why? each person goes at their own pace. guess im just posting this cause im nervous. im staring at my brandy in one hand, and the clock on my mobile in the other. soon ill know. but why not now? we have almost instantaneous communication available, yet we still have to abide by "working hours." why? if im gonna be a nobody, why not tell me now? i have to contact them asap, why cant they do the same? its causing me so much stress right now. tick tock again. but its ok. im medicated for this, yet they are allowed to make my condition worse with their threats? why? well i suppose it doesnt matter. its better to be writing this than cutting. but why should we have to be pushed to the point of no return by those meant to aid us? and all because of a wheel and a fucking battery!!!