Since I was a kid I can remember how, I was pushed around by assholes at schools, my parents hardly ever took a minute to notice me.
From a lot of things, people and happenings in my life, I have saw how you must suck up and kiss ass just to be seen, and that's among both my family AND friends.
When i was growing up it was mostly my teachers I went to, my parents were too busy arguing among themselves and being pissed at each other, more then anything I wanted away from them, my dad was too arrogant and proud to want to admit his son has health problems and is going to have a heard time with most things, so my brother got most of the attention, he could play sports, was good in school, I had to work two times as hard in studying just to remember for the test coming up( which is why I hate the idea of going to college)when my brother dropped out and I actually graduated.
Right now I am to the point I don' think any of my friends or family give one damn about me, NO ONE bothers to even say hi, when here I am the one doing all the calling trying to have some sort of communication with ppl I thought cared about me..as always I am just a bother, I just want to give up.
If I had the money to move away from here, try to start over.
I have wanted away from here since I was in High School (class of 95) you got no idea how many ppl in my life have turned their backs away from me.
I have always tried to be a good person all my life, I just don't see what purpose that serves anymore, since no one in my life gives enough a care just to say hello even.
Shit like this is why I repeat to myself "I hate people."
I just do not know what to do anymore:furious:
From a lot of things, people and happenings in my life, I have saw how you must suck up and kiss ass just to be seen, and that's among both my family AND friends.
When i was growing up it was mostly my teachers I went to, my parents were too busy arguing among themselves and being pissed at each other, more then anything I wanted away from them, my dad was too arrogant and proud to want to admit his son has health problems and is going to have a heard time with most things, so my brother got most of the attention, he could play sports, was good in school, I had to work two times as hard in studying just to remember for the test coming up( which is why I hate the idea of going to college)when my brother dropped out and I actually graduated.
Right now I am to the point I don' think any of my friends or family give one damn about me, NO ONE bothers to even say hi, when here I am the one doing all the calling trying to have some sort of communication with ppl I thought cared about me..as always I am just a bother, I just want to give up.
If I had the money to move away from here, try to start over.
I have wanted away from here since I was in High School (class of 95) you got no idea how many ppl in my life have turned their backs away from me.
I have always tried to be a good person all my life, I just don't see what purpose that serves anymore, since no one in my life gives enough a care just to say hello even.
Shit like this is why I repeat to myself "I hate people."
I just do not know what to do anymore:furious:
