I viewed my five kids' facebook sites and discovered that although they have listed their father (ex-husband) as their parent, there is no mention of me as their mother. One of them has even lied, giving someone else's name as their mother. I have spent 22 years caring for them and they have just thrown me out of their lives. The last time I saw them was 7 months ago, and I've had no other contact with them since. Is it so wrong to become mentally ill? I didn't ask to develop the conditions that I have. I didn't deliberately go looking for a nervous breakdown. I hurt so badly that I really, really want to stop living now. My life has become a living nightmare and this is the last straw. I can't cope with any more. I've been fighting suicidal impulses for so long. I think that it's time to give in.