<Mod Edit, WildCherry: suicide note> I've written this to be my suicide note. For a while I didn't see a point even leaving one; gone is gone. But I do have a desire to let my close ones have a chance to understand my reasoning, perchance to ease their suffering. I know they will never fully comprehend my views and convictions nomatter how elaborately I'd express them, so instead of trying that I came up with this point to point pseudo-poem. My suicide is more than 20 years in the coming at this point, so please don't respond with how I may not have thought things through, or how tomorrow might look better. Not causing my close ones suffering has been one of the major points for holding back on killing myself, but as I write in my note "... it is better you end than decline further into a shame", I see now that while they might look favourably upon me now, the passing of years will only see me decline into a person increasingly wretched, silent and bitter - like so many, many other people I see in every day life. But where fear of death is keeping them in check, I've worked long to overcome that particular hurdle. So why post it here? I'd like some feedback, perhaps some pointers, I dunno. And I won't deny vanity playing a part.