hello, this is me again. I am done, I have organized everything. I have made my mind and I feel OK I feel so calm now. Of course I am a bit scare but I know I will be in a better life. I know people will carry on with their lives when I am not here. It is good I have no family of my own, my parents are both dead and I just have a brother. I am sad. But I know now I don´t have to worry about anything. In 2 weeks I will not be here. Thanks to everyone on this forum for hearing me.