Time to tell it like it is

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Hazibell, Oct 3, 2008.

  1. Hazibell

    Hazibell Well-Known Member

    And stop posting questioning things because basically I think everyone has guessed...

    Okay. Me and my bf of 3 years last July met here. Most of you who have been here through that time will know.
    About a year and a half ago...he told me he downloaded child pornography...I was 15/16 and hadn't got a clue what the hell to do. I didn't want to lost him (how fucking stupid) but it made me sick. He would describe to me in graphic detail what he would like to do with children...described pictures and videos to me. And when we met was a lot rougher with things than before.

    It was only this year, when we split up and I got the most horrible texts from him, threatening to kill himself and it was all my fault and then threatening to make me pay and in one even slit my throat, that I showed an adult friend who was wonderful about it all and she took me to the police. Originally to report the texts and it ended up being to report everything. I don't want to write what the outcome was, because he is a member and even though he hasn't been on here for a while and has said he has left, I'm not risking it. But basically they didn't get hold of him because I didn't have an address (i now do but have been told only to give it to them if it starts being threatening again). The policeman was less than helpful and even my adult friend agreed with me about that.
    I am in touch with a member of my ex's family and I ended up telling him, so he told the entire family. My ex has since picked up with his own cousin's girlfriend and it has just been revealed tonight that it was them together who sent me things about slitting my throat etc.
    Theres a lot more. But thats the story in basic.
    I just can't stop crying every night about the images I've not constantly got...
    I know this isn't as bad as some...people who've had it happen to them etc but I'm not trying to compete...just feel so :'(
     
  2. Theory

    Theory Well-Known Member

    Are you kidding me? No one is worst then others, (well...) this isn't good at all. It isn't sincere from him! I'd complain and send right away his address to the police. If they don't turn to someone, possibly an adult guy you trust, and ask him if he'd be willing to stop this with you. Sit down and chat with this jerk. (sorry) Hand in there. It's all right to cry it'll loosen you up a bit, I cry too myself when i don't know what else to do. Makes me feel better. Hope it does to you also! Hang in there sweetheart, :hug: :smile:
     
  3. Hazibell

    Hazibell Well-Known Member

    Thank you Theory.
    He isn't contacting me anymore. I am just in contact with a member of his family and they're letting me know what is going on. About the only member that believes me.
    Its just this child thing that is really getting to me. I don't think he would ever touch anyone. But surely once you start liking that kinda thing you don't just stop.
    I do now have his address which I didn't have before but I phoned the police and asked them if they wanted it and they said only if he starts making a nuisance of himself again.
    I don't know why people are taking this so lightly. I guess it may be because of the fact that he is an ex and people lie about these sorts of things to get them into trouble, even though god knows why people would lie about something like this.
    Yeaa, I know I put that bad, its just, I've had people argue with me before saying my problems aren't as bad as those that get abused everyday etc. I know that. But these are the things that get to me.
    Thanks so much for replying, I didn't think anyone would.
     
  4. Hazibell

    Hazibell Well-Known Member

    Even after all this I can't hate him. There were good times. Probably equal bad and good tbh. Why can't I hate him.
    I don't still love him. But I don't hate him. He's left me with images that will never go away. And said some pretty sick things to me. But I don't hate....wtf