i can't seem to find satisfaction with mundane small talk or anyone with whom i can consistently find interesting conversation. i have friends, but i don't know how to (if it's even okay) to just call them up and talk about something i care about. i'm becoming increasingly shy and going out less and less, and i can't seem to break out of it. around twilight i usually get depressed and i just get sucked in until i go to sleep. i should be able to help myself but i feel so lethargic and uninterested. help with any of this is appreciated, thanks. to further break the continuity of this spill, after six months in hospitals my friends have grown more distant. they never called often, and when one of us does extend contact usually they invite 1+ people along who i just do not mesh with and the talk falls into sexual innuendo, profanity, etc and even though i know they're good guys they try to fit in by following along. in short, how do i bond, rebond, and work up the will to do it?