I lost it today. My chest is heavy and I feel like it could burst. Tired of these outbursts. I think I'm fine but then a small discussion or disappointment can create and avalanche. There is something very deeply buried, an anger, the loss it comes up around B-day's and holidays. Five family members passed away, I watch how the rest of the family copes, sometimes there's guilt and sometimes there is just this deep deep sorrow.